To dream the impossible dream…To try when your arms are too weary/ To reach the unreachable star.
Those in the know have observed that individuals having the most difficulty in the last stage of life as they prepare to pass through the veil are those with the most regrets. Thus, we have coined the term Bucket List for those things we want to do before we die. When you consider the really important things in life, I’ve been truly blessed and in terms of what’s left to do were I to write it down, I’d have a fairly short bucket list. So when a dear friend shared her excitement about a new program for holistic nurses, I was surprised at how much I regretted that it was no longer an option for me. The regret is more a holdover from years ago than something I truly desire to do today. One of my blessings was “accidentally” getting in on the very beginning of the Healing Touch Program and what a ride it was. In a real sense, I was ahead of my time in our culture and, oh, the changes I’ve seen in health care over the past twenty-five years. There is an opening and interest within health care now for the body/mind/spirit concepts of integrative health care and for the program my nurse friend is excited about; that I’m excited about for her.
Now retired from acute care hospital nursing and from my role as a Healing Touch Instructor, it’s challenging that I find what I can do, what dreams remain. In my adolescence I dreamed of being a movie star. During my stint as editor of our high school newspaper, I had the thrill of lunching with alumni; journalists who had risen to the top in the Seattle P-I and Seattle TIMES so, naturally, as I prepared to go off to college, I fantasized about being a journalist. I never dreamed or fantasized about being a nurse and yet that was my calling. I hadn’t even heard of energy medicine and yet I was called to it. What am I being called to in my 70’s? What is your “being” called to?
I think I always fantasized about being a writer and got a teensy thrill recently when an article I wrote was published. I have found that in the doing you discover your being. I don’t know that I’m driven to a “glorious quest” but I’m still growing up, yes? John Lennon’s mother told him that happiness was the key to life. In school when he was asked what he wanted to be when he grew up, he wrote down, “happy.” They told him he didn’t understand the assignment. He told them they didn’t understand life. Don’t you think that being happy is a glorious quest at any age? What makes you happy?
And I know if I’ll only be true to this glorious quest/ That my heart will lie peaceful and calm when I’m laid to my rest…
The Impossible Dream from Man of La Mancha.